“This I tell you – having cancer could never be easy and I know that every cancer patient knows this.
Until today, I’m still coping. There are good and not so good days.
But each day I’m learning to let go all the worries and negative thoughts that will not do any good to me.”
October 2015 when I came back to my doctor. This is all where began my cancer journey. It was confirmed that I have Myxoid Liposarcoma thru MRI. Surgery was done at Cardinal Santos Medical Center by my very good and compassionate doctor, Dr. Samuel Ang. And the final diagnosis is Myxoid Liposarcoma with 40% Roundcell Component that made it a high grade and largest dimension was at 7cm.
Now, after 3 months it grew, double in size. We have to consider or treat this as metastatic sarcoma and this needs to be removed. At the moment, I’m having another PET/CT scan so that my doctor can finalize our medical plan.
I was scared and frustrated. I have lots of plans and dreams and thought that my time is limited or cannot fulfill them anymore. I am living a fast-paced life. I am at the peak of my career and thought that I was living a healthy lifestyle where everything is balanced. And then suddenly here comes the word sarcoma which I never even knew existed.
That is the truth, there are many negative emotions that really consumed my mind and my body. I am not a vocal person ever since that is why maybe coping is not that easy for me. But throughout this journey, I realized a lot of things. And the most important thing is to always lean on God. And that not all things have answers, that is why we need to trust the higher being.
I always put into mind that God will not give us what we cannot handle, that God is greater than all my struggles, all my doubts, all my insecurities and all my fears. He has a plan and He will take care of everything.
They say the big part of this cancer is from negative emotions, and I believe that. That is why my advice is, always choose your battles. We choose what is worthy of our stress, worry, and frustration because it affects not only our mind but our body as well. We are ultimately responsible for our own health.
Now I am focusing on being thankful for everything. I am focusing on being a good person that I could be. I am focusing on trusting God and His plan for me.
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